Puzzled

I'm beginning to realize how all the things I've done in my past are all so significant. Everything I do affects who I am. If I never did that, this wouldn't have happened. If I would have done this, that wouldn't have happened, and so on and so on. I firmly believe that everything, and I do mean EVERYTHING, happens for a reason. A little less than a year ago I was in a heap of trouble. I had made some terrible decisions and I have always thought that it was all a huge mistake. But now as I'm sitting here on my couch thinking back on what I've done and seeing everything that has happened since then, I'm happy that all happened. I'm a stronger person because of it. People look down on me for the choices I've made. I think it makes me a better person. I'm pretty happy with myself these days and because of that, I have no regrets. None. I've done lots of bad things before, I've made many poor decisions, but I'm grateful for the lessons. I feel like I can make the most out of my life because I've seen the worst of my life. I'm not saying it's a good thing to screw up, what I am saying though is this: We all make mistakes, we all must learn from those mistakes, what I've done has actually made a few people realize how bad some things can really mess you up. So if my lowest point can help someone decide not to go there, then I've succeeded. Everything happens for a reason.

Currently

So I'm doing pretty good with my "get healthy" plan. I drink only water, I'm doing lots of little things to stay active, I'm really watching what I eat, and no more sweets. I'll let that last one slide every now and then but hey, it's all about baby steps. I'm already feeling better throughout the day. I have more energy and I feel happier. I've been losing sleep though, for some reason the past three night have just been awful. I don't normally wake up often in the night but these past few night I've just been having odd dreams and wierd things like that that cause me to wake up. I just hope this will all work out for me.

So far so good .